Answer of the Day: Try to Find Peace in the Pieces

The problem with dating is that there are only two possible conclusions: stay together or end it. I chose one of the most risky and difficult ways to "date" someone, via a long distance relationship, and it didn't work out. 

Now I'm left to try to find some peace through the sadness and put the pieces of my heart back together.

My time in Michigan was great. And I was blindsided by the fact that it wasn't mutual on his part. But I am a big girl and I will recover. The lesson in all of the this recovery process, this finding peace in the pieces of my heart, is to work harder to not let myself get ahead of things too quickly. I was conscious that I was doing it, and I tried to keep myself in check. But it didn't stop me from envisioning the coming months, the coming years... That's where the real heartbreak is.

It's so hard to keep believing that the right person is out there for me. It's a grueling process to keep putting myself in a position of vulnerability. But there is no way around it. There are no shortcuts.  And speaking of shortcuts, there is no way I will ever do a long distance relationship with someone else again. You heard it here. Three strikes I'm out. 

Answer of the Day: Go Find an Answer in Lansing. Michigan.

So, as I write this post I am en route to Detroit, somewhere over Wyoming I think. I have taken the hugest leap of faith ever and am going to spend the weekend in Lansing Michigan with Kyle. Gotta get some answers to this question: is this for real???  

Since December we have spoken for hours upon hours, had several movie "dates" -- I do not recommend The Numbers Station-- his pick. There is a reason you haven't heard if it. I hadn't either. I do recommend Runner Runner though,  Not only is it entertaining, based on real life, and interesting. You get to look at Justin Timberlake and Ben Affleck for and hour and half. so even if the movie sucked, it wouldn't be a total loss in my opinion. (I picked that one and even got the concession that it was a better pick than his.😊)

....phone calls, FaceTime... You name it we have employed every possible for of communication possible for two people who are 2300 miles apart.  And it has been fucking amazing. No, like really. 

So the huge question is: does all the chemistry and the investment of the last four months (all started in  November translate to real life? Which begs the next obvious question:if it does translate! what comes next for the Michigan State Police Director of Intelligence and the Los Altos High school English teacher?

We have both been very deliberate about not getting too far ahead of ourselves. So it is hard not to feel a lot of excitement coupled (pun very much intended) with a bit if pressure about this weekend. But whatever happens, I will start to get some answers in about an hour and a half... 

Answer of the Day: Don't Bet Against the Seahawks in the Super Bowl

Especially when paying for a couples massage is on the line. You will lose. But in this case it might be a total WIN...